Monday, January 31, 2011

Life...


I am so infrequent with blogging that it is a little sad. But alas it is always good to start afresh.

For anyone that is reading this, they probably already know the drama going on with our life right now. Out of the blue in the beginning of January, our Landlords let us know that they would not be renewing our lease at the end of March. They had decided to sell the house they live in and move back into this one. Leaving us hanging just a little. Needless to say I was in panic mode for a couple of days, then slowly things started to return to normal. Well, I say normal, but what is normal really? But at least I stopped crying at night after I put the kids to bed. I don't remember the last time I cried so much in a three day period. Our house has been perfect for us, our neighborhood is great, the ward is wonderful, the elementary school is good, Chase can walk to middle school, and our next door neighbors the Dunns, are the best neighbors one could ever dream of having. Just thinking about them right now makes me sad that we won't be living next to them. Brooke can't just walk over there at the slightest whim, just to see them. Our families have become very close these last almost 4 years. If any member of our family can't be found, the first place everyone knows to check is next door. And Grandpa (well really he is their grandpa, but we claim him too) who lives their 6 months out of the year at least, comes over to see Chad at least once a day. And he always rings the doorbell twice, so all of the kids, even the day care kids hear it and yell out, "Grandpas here". So that is probably the part of this all that makes me the saddest.

But I have learned and grown already from this experience and it isn't even over yet. We will be sad to leave, but I think that is part of life, to have sorrow and sadness, but to find joy and gladness in every situation. I think of all of the pioneers and what they had to leave when they left their homes, and they didn't even have a "stay with parents till we figure it out" back up plan. They just left everything and walked for months to get to someplace they hadn't even checked out on google maps. I can't imagine the faith that that must have taken. I take for granted so much of what I have, and I am so blessed.

I have realized with this though that everyone is going through some kind of trial right now, and we all need to help each other, and keep our faith strong to make it through whatever we are going through. I hope we find a place to live soon, but I truly feel that the Lord knows what he is doing, and in the end everything will work out.